Where it all begins

This is mainly for me to write and keep my thoughts. With how crazy life can seem its what I need. First off a little about me. 

I'm Heidi. Born and raised in Milwaukee WI. I currently live in Radcliff KY with my husband and daughter. I'm a stay at home wife and mom. I love it but sometimes feel like I'm missing out. I'm working on getting certified in Microsoft word, power point and excel. I just took up Knitting. I'm a huge book work. I love books and never seem to have enough. I'm a music junkie. Music is really in my soul. 

My history is a huge part of who I am today. I grew up on the poor side of things. I never went out for long but never got anything special either.  I never had those name brand clothes or was that popular kid in school. I ended up dropping out once I turned 18. I only had one real job working at a Dry Cleaners. Which I only got cause of my mom. 

I was in a bad relationship from the time I was 17 till 21. I let him control my life and who was my friends. I let him take something from me that shouldn't of been. Shortly before I turned 18 i got knocked up and had to make a huge choice. To this day I wish I stood my ground.  

At 21 I met my now husband and its been a rough road. Not saying all its been bad but there are things that happened we could of done with out. We married on April 21, 2008. We rushed to get married before he went back into the Army. Its a chapter in my life i wish i could rip out and never look back on. 

I am a survivor of a deployment. I never wanted to give up so much on everything than I did turning that time. It wasn't all bad but I hated. I ended up breaking down after I had my daughter. A mix of depression and Post Postpartum. I pushed on and knew I had no choice but get better. 

Right now I'm going threw everything with my husband with his PTSD, Medical issues and life. I'll have to explain at a later date. Mainly cause everything still upsets me. 

My child has been a blessing. Being told I couldn't get pregnant and beating those odds sure makes me feel good. However her timing was at the worst time. I found out I was pregnant a few months before my husband was due to deploy. I had a lot of hate at my body at the time. All that time trying and trying to have it happen before he would leave me. She did save me from doing a lot of stupid shit. Takes me looking back now to see how she has helped me. 

As I think of more I will write it down. However this is where I will end this. For now...